Sunday, January 14, 2007

** 0453hrs **
** body shopping **

oh yea . its the start of year 2008 already. 20 years 9mths and 5 days of living , 6 mths of ns and finally , 95 days to my 21st . just came back from yt's 21st . bbq and celebration.

nothing much to talking abt . but i have realised everyone have moved on in life . everyone got a job , a partner , a decent income , a proper education . the only thing constant is change . o.O

i am stuck . completely stuck . stuck with my life . neither forward nor back . stagnant . day in day out . i want to work . i want to earn a decent pay . but all i get is a mere allowance. crap! i hate to rant abt pay and ns . but it realli is taking a toll on my life . many things cant be done . and i realli mean many . -_- this is crap! ! ! ! CRAP in bold!

zzz

well... at least i am able to afford yt 21st present . which i paid 50% more . -_- arghz! but at least she liked it and it were the scent that she always use . phew... and choosing a 21st present aint easy . i even had to resort to buying NTUC voucher for her . lolz . that would be a pleasent surprise eh! haahhaa =x

so we started preparing for the bbq this afternoon. even after much protest from me and sy , she was so insistent that apple and egg over bbq will be nice . it was a bad idea from start . we got the ingredients ready for her lil experiment. and i was the one who was cooking her lil experiment for her! and it turned out as expected : inedible . zzzzz


all in all it was a great night for a gathering ....

yawnz ...

sighz... its been a tiring week .. sighz ...

tired .

samu

- raging fire and the wicked apple
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 4:53 AM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

**0100hrs**
**huh**
**extreme sadness**

today i went to the medical officer for a check up . for the cough the have been bothering me for the past week. so there i went and waited for 2 hrs. they said the doctor rushed a guy to hospital.

when i got home , i saw the news . the guy whom was sent to the hospital passed away . cos of chest pain.

life is fragile. just a week ago , a guy had jump off from the 14th of my block and died. i saw the corpse. aint comfortable tho.

life is fragile that it can be taken away anytime. lives have been taken away all around me. thats sad. ever since the start of man kind , humans have been trying to protect themselves. devising tools and weapons to fend off beast and to the vaccine created in labs to fight germs. tho the effort , lives can be taken away easily. by the forces of nature and by their own kind.

man killing man . for idealogy for fame for wealth . 1001 things . irony. o.o

extreme sadness.

things aint going that well tho. things have been kinda stagnent at work. studying and studying and doing nothing. bored. the brain is hungry for new things to do and the body is deprived of activity. i cant take it any much more longer. tsk . i dont mean i am going to commit suicide tho.

extreme sadness.

A B A B problem have yet to be solved . well... not that i am stil holding on. i just cant take the aftermath. yeah. call me useless call me coward. i just don wish to attend the event on sat. not that i dont consider her as my friend. but i just cant bring myself to the event when i know i wont enjoy a single bit. the usual long faced quiet me.

extreme sadness...

do looks realli matter that much?

why do people look at the appearence and judge it before even knowing u . or rather why even knowing u , looks still play an important part? hur hur . not that i am whining but it aint fair . i give u a good looking guy with a bad character . u would take it anytime with saliva still drooling out of the corner of ur mouth. thats the impression i have . thats the way things are .

....

ok . 25th of nov. i have decided not to attend any thing. jo bbq , shuang bday , fatt concert and yan's performance. its just tat i cant decide which one to go . first time in my life i encounter these things. shows i am not that popular after all. well .. thats not the point . i dont realli care abt popularity.

sorry guys . its not that i dont wanna go. i have my reasons. reasons that are strong enuff for me not to attend either . so in the end i have chosen to go out with tang. and thats if she agrees . yeah. and dumb me for saying i wanna see much more of her thats why i dated her. great! i have just made the whole world turn against me. cheers

i know i have neither the looks nor the money to make u like me. i know it darn clear the rules of the game. and it sure looks like i aint playing with the rules.

...

ok . enuff . even i think i am too negative today . hur hur .. negative energy is no good .. no good at all ...

extreme sadness...

samu



- extreme sadness
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 3:47 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

** 0307 hrs **
** yet another forcefully awake day **
** POP LO! **
** A B A B A B **

yup.... PoP loH! lolz . i have been thru BMT . now its FLC . and its ending soon . tml infact.

in many a times i kept reminding myself the duty i am supposed to serve. the role i am supposed to fit in. defending the nation that is . the very first day of BMT i step into tekong , say my oath , i am official a member of the SAF . to serve and fight. to protect and uphold the flag. tho saying so , sometimes it kept slipping my mind that i do not carry myself as a soldier . as someone whom will protect the country. i look back and i realise the importance of all these . the importance of protecting ur loved ones , the significance behind it . this country is all i have , the only one that i have. today , tml , infinite days ahead. POP LOH!

someday i will venture out of the nest . to look for greener pasture. to explore new territories and uncover new things. someday i will make it big . someday .....

ns experience is once in a life time. u get to know many many people , just when u think u knew them all , u turn a corner , u find another interesting fellow leading an extraordinary life. they are your buddies . buddies that u will sacrifice ur life protecting and in return sacrifice his to cover ur back.

in tekong i knew my buddy . tho not in contact so often , i still miss him . every now and then , i think of memories of bmt , i remember him. someone whom is tough on the outside and soft on the inside lolz. he has the strength of steel and the heart of gold. someone whom places friendship infront of many other things . we shared cigarettes , maggi mee , ration and wonderful memories. we came out with many fantastic ideas , to keng , to slack , to run away from lessons and to steal a puff .

there was once when we were deperately out of cigarettes , he will try way and means to find one . while i will beg and steal . in the end we would quietly sneak into the smoking point , fearful of leeches and share that precious stick we had.

i remember the time when i had high fever . 39.5 . he was the one whom gave me the fever patch , fill my water bottle and scold me out of bed to bathe. he was the one whom took care of me when i was sick .

he is my friend , my bunk mate , my buddy

thats BMT life . then came FLC , flight line crew . airforce sch . here i learnt many valuable technical lessons. technical know-how to the aircraft . here i made friends . friends whom will crack stupid jokes and friends whom are all out to go after a girl. there are the smart ones and the not so smart ones. the ultimate introvert and the outspoken extrovert. there are also understanding mentor and quality demanding officers.

in AFS i opted to stay in . never looked back ever since. in staying in , i learn independent. i learn how to conquer fear , my own fear. i experience ultimate loneliness and joyful gatherings. i learnt time management , which didnt turn out that well .. and ultimately i learnt kinship. i began to love my mum's cooking and i miss lan gaming with my brother.

every day is a learning day . everyone u meet is here to teach you something ......
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heh! thats abt all abt ns . =) yet again its POP LOH! tml will be my last day at AFS . wad lies ahead is still unknown . =) more things to learn and more people to meet i guess...

A B A B A B .... choices u make in life. i set out with a neutral heart. hoping to make more friends , to broaden my circle of friends. i fear one day the circle will start strinking . becoming smaller and smaller till i end up with no friends. i tried keeping up with other ppl's life . in the end i realise . it aint that simple . aint that simple at all . i ended up being A .

A is the one whom thinks if he is determined to make friends , nothing will happen . neither do he want to fall in love . cos he realise love aint mean anything after all.

wad does one get out of love ? hatred , betrayal , penniless , emotion stress , basically nothing. or perhaps if u ask , wad does one hope/want to get out of a relationship . then comes in a different equation with love , ego , sex , money ..... many many other things.

A aint the one going after anything. he needed no love nor did he need to fill some ego . sex and money are ridiculous to him. then he came into a conclusion. why bother getting into love now where neither can u afford the money nor the time. so he decided . make more friends.

and he went about knowing more people and keeping more often in contact. not knowing one day he would fall for someone whom he tot impossible all along. ridiculous right? now he is back to the problem he started off avoiding.

it aint doing anyone good . so he suffered in silence plus emotion crisis .

lolz . thats the story of A . A for stupid , childish thinking . A for thinking in such a simple way ending up making a fool of himself .

he could just look in the reflection and laugh at himself . booo.

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lolz . thats more or less abt it . lolz .. funny funny .

samu

dragon pl 2 : we had wonderful memories . now we are seperated . someday we shall meet up right?

rondeau 21 : its wonderful! superb performance . but just under-performed ticket sales.

tang! : be safe and return to spore kz! MMM and CC !! remember!

samu : HAHAHAHAHA

- forcefully awake IV
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 3:11 AM

Friday, June 02, 2006

** 0144hrs **


woot! i shall be off to tekong soon. T minus 8 hours 16 minutes. =)


this is not the end . its just the beginning. =)


samuuu


chiu kewei shuang : take a breathe of it when u miss me *winkz*


bin pete ming fatt merrill : cheers guys! hooo ha!


i didnt geveryone else whom et in ! contact before entering : i will be out in 2 weeks . for the week end . hooo hah! woooo


** i am a cca gold acheivement awardee , a lousy scholar with GPA 2.9 =D woooo! **

- embracing armyhood
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 1:47 AM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

** 0525hrs **

** eto'o **

** lemon .-_- **


alrights. its finalised . spain will be having their celebration. barcelona 2 Arsenal 1 . three cheers for the spanish play ! booooz for the foolish lemon act!


concert is approaching . tsk . many many last min surprises . sigh . lets just hope. hope for the better. or hope for the best of worst . =\ shrugs .


i am drained! from everything. too many things are undone and too many loop holes uncovered. this is a fabulous team yet so many problems. sigh. i just wish for the best.


at least the guy from prata house finally got his nasi goreng ikan billis right. woooo! at least .....


at least kewei is still functioning well. i cant imagine if she falls ill or got herself into inaction. too many players down with injury. too many things left undone. sighz .


sorry i had nothing much to talk abt other than the up coming concert. its the only thing that occupies me . tho i am not playing , i try my best to focus on the concert's operation. lolz . yes i know ... why ask u to come for my concert when i am not playing . =x i was supposed to play de. but kengwee came along. a better player to support the section and the band as a whole . so why not? and much help will be needed with the operations. lionel cant run the whole show alone right? so here i am . assistant stage manager/ operations manager! =) nice name i got myself eh. lolz. at least give me a nice title? for so much effort put in . *wink*


argh . i cant stop thinking abt arsenal defeat. they just had to hold on for another 13 mins and its theirs . argh! why did lemon do the stupid act? lolz perhaps if he didnt do it , there may still be extra time . considering campbell still did his wonderful header. then at least theres something there ya know? WHY? -_- unpredictable ending! lolz like all things in life.


alrights. thats abt all the updates . =\ i shall be off to complete my instruction sheet for the concert. yes! the concert again! please come for the concert if u haven buy a ticket alright? to reward the hard work put in by the team. =)


oh ya . i forgot to add . the name of the girl was not colin . lolz due to the noise and chatters in the music room , i couldnt get her name right . her name is ko sin . lolz and she wore the batman slippers from teh clubhouse back home. i offered her and she accepted it . *smacks forehead.* apparently her slippers broke . and she attempted to glue it back with white glue. eh? while glue!!! omg! and she stayed quite far can. and it was not a slipper .it was more like a bedroom footwear. those u wear at home . cushy cushy kind . omg! -_- interesting year ones we have . lolz


btw , the latest sales from what i heard have rose over 400 already . lolz sounds good . better than what i expect but still not enough. we can do it together guys . more more!


samuuu uuuu uuu uu u


pnc 06 team : jiayouz! ooosh!


circle b : theres two side the coin . u forgot the other.


xl : tho i not performing , u have to come and see what the team has acheived! oosh!


tang : when are we ever going to see each other . and when will i get my hands on the vodka? lolz


kewei : ur the best. u are doing just fine! some more tickets ok?


leen : tho u not helping us le , we still thank u for putting in the effort! =) cheers!


daryl (emcee) : thanks for putting us in this situation. no worries.


me : cough cough

- Forcefully awoke III
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 5:21 AM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

** 1025hrs **
** forcefully awake II **
its early in the morning 1025am . and i have merely managed 5 hours of sleep , 6 max . -__- its taking its toll on me tho.
while waiting for the iron to warm up , let me tell u a story . story of L2 - puking girl. i meant puke-ing girl . lolz
we had a group of 5 young ladies coming in for a drink ytd . apparently one of them - jolin had too much to drink and started puking and started mumbling crazy stuffs. o.O got ur attention?
actually nothing happened much . but i saw them at eski bar shortly after harry's close for the day . wooooo.... they yearn for a drink eh? lolz
so here comes the moral of the story . when is the last time u get out and truely release urself . release urself from the reality world and take a little stroll into the selfless realm. everybody deserves a break . thats what i told allan . indeed. working 6 days a week and till late every day, the body needs a break .
so get out ! release ur self enjoy. enjoy the "polling" day. enjoy ur progre$$ money! =) have fun! while i slog at harrys today. -_- i am going to work at 7 and now i am heading to sch. hur hur .
samuuu
release urself! NOW!
tang : prawn prawn prawn , talk talk talk , talk prawn!
ming : CBK CBK CBK CBK CBK . neh!
me : sleep sleep sleep sleep

- forcefully awake II
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 10:25 AM

Friday, May 05, 2006

** 0330hrs **

** where am i ? **

** where will i be? **

i am blogging two times a day! ( a day will start only after u sleep. ) yes. its the timing issue brought up by ming wei again..*waves* blah blah blah. and i agree with pete that a day only end after sleeping . tsk ..


the japanese roof for the booth is finally up! *cheers* ... designed and made by the lionel team. ( me lionel and pete ... ) lolz .. cool eh ! i will up load the pics tml! however there are some issues to be solved . the integrity of the building , the placement of sign and bamboo shoots .. lolz .. it realli look like a japanese tea hut . and all band members .. please do not tamper with the little hut .. its our sweat and blood. and someone still insist that the lantern looks more suitable for funerals .

taking about funerals. i am having a wake of a neighbour below my block. someone whom i dont even remember seeing in the block . well , not a surprise , considering the time i reach home everyday . o.O

so today while waiting for my turn for the pool cue , i came out with an business idea. to open a company that caters to concert band and performing groups. to provide printing , designing , production and recording .. sounds like a wonderful business idea and when i was about to move to my business plan , wenbin came in and told me there is a company providing this service . well.. there goes my money-making scheme.

looks like i am stuck being a worker all my life . -_-

got to know this two freshies while i am doing my japanese hut , peiwen , colin? ( i hope i got it right?) yes yes ... i hear pete , bin , ming and fatt . -_- what made me comment so much about them is their attitude . the way they talk reflects so much about the present generation , not that i do not belong in that generation but i believe they are totally in a different catergory as my generation is . well ... i just cant explian it . alrights . i shall not say anymore . lest the gang will start questioning me again with the " what are u up to this time? " look .. * innocent*

now there was another pair of freshies which made me so dissapointed . apparently they are trying to pick up flute playing . so they were seated in the clubhouse . all the present band members are playing in the music room so there wasnt anyone to teach them. this blame the system. but! they were yanking all the time in the clubhouse talking abt irrelevant things . doing everything else than learning how to play flute.

i overheard a snips of the conversation . wasnt very clear with the details tho ..

girl A asks girl B " so do you know how to play the flute? " ( dumb qns ! if she knew she would not be sitting here already.)

girl B " er... i got piano grade 1 , violin grade 2 .....er... and organ grade 5 . but my flute grade 0 " (dohz . bitch! . she isnt answering the question.)

girl C sat there and listened to the conversation , i assume she has got nothing to say tho .. lolz . =\

so so .. after a few moments . girl B and C whom are friends , i suppose .. came up to me and lionel and said they are going off . reason : flute is too difficult to learn already . the end .

today i came across two different group of youngsters. and i came to a conclusion . what makes u different aint the looks . the thing that realli matters is ur attitude! wooo... and so after awhile this freshie came in to join the band . she has got no music background. but becos she had braces . so we were unsure if we would accept her . so we told her the problem with playing with braces. she didnt walk off . so we suggested her to play other instruments . ( brass instruments are painful for braces according to lionel ) due to the lack of instruments , we ended up allocating her to flute. she gladly accepts and cant wait till the practice starts. i see a great attitude here. a true learning attitude! aint it wonderful? *applause*

remember i said earlier in teh afternoon? everyone here is to teach you a lesson. the freshies i met today taught me many tho i didnt offer much to them. they taught me the importance of attitude.

samuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

peiwen , colin , braces girl ( sorry i didnt get her name =x) : three cheers for positive learning attitude

girl B , girl C : shooo... *boooo* smack wack slap!

pete : congrats for walking out of the darkness . it looks like my turn is coming soon . =x

ming : CBK! wahahahhaa

japanese hut : stay strong!!! u have to survive till 20th may! hang in there alrights?

me : *yawns*

watch this space

- forcefully awake
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 3:27 AM


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