Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Operation Zest ended officially on saturday 2nd of April. yuppie . am embracing the warmth of the holidays ahead of me with an empty pocket . hahaha. well well . i think i can score for EM cos i did all the qns? ya? haha actually i put in effort in all the papers . as much as i can. did moi best . but MF isnt that well done. dang! its difficult ! and the Tr wasnt suppose to come out lor. or so i tot . perhaps Tr = drag kinda thing so its included . argh crap . TF was great . finally i have the feeling of being prepared for a paper in a long time . did all the qns and did it quite well . i suppose . all have to wait till the results come out in god knows when.

well talking abt god . the pope just passed away not too long ago. well kinda sad tho. in a world of unsettled disputes , disasterous calamity , poverty , homeless children we have lost yet another great leader. someone once said " how many armies does the pope command?" i say none. but he is one of the most powerful men the world have ever seen. he doesnt control peoples heart by fear , by force . he gains their trust through the words of God . gain their hearts through religion. we indeed have lost someone great.

well , u will ask if i am someone whom believes in god in jesus and all . i say i believe in god. the greater being above man. the one beyond the reach of common folks . i truly believe god is something greatly spoken by almost everyone. but just in different languages. they speak of god in christianity , in islam , in buddism and all . i believe in religion that speak of good will ,of peace . but believing is one thing being extreme is another. its doing bad stuffs in the name of god. those are the mislead ones. bad. tsk.

life just goes on. thinking of it , in 2 years time i will well be 21 years old . hur hur . embracing adulthood i shld say . =) think dad will be relieved that his sons have all grown up . in his blessings above , he helped me quite a few times along the way. the peserverence and all . mom would be proud that both her son have grown up too . much to her difficulty . she put in efforts that no words can describe in this family. she may well leave the family when dad went off . she have no obligations to stay on. but i think its abt the love for dad and all that made her stay. believe it or not , she will be the role model for my future wife. the type of girls i will look for. =) kinda traditional for a guy like me ya?

ur eyes. beautiful and unique as it is , i avoid looking in. for the fear of me falling deeper and deeper in this senseless bottomless hole. falling into the dark pupil of the eye. NO. i shall stop all these nonsense of mine here and now. its impossible like u have said. its too soon like i have concluded. hope it will just vanish into thin air with a blink of eye. i shall avoid looking into it . the eyes. ur eyes.

sam
8th of april . the day I came to this world. this lonely world.

- ants in the sugar bowl
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