** 11/5/05 wednesday 2341hrs... **

** who am i? whats my purpose... **

** i finally knew the reason... **

david " ever since u started , i have only known u today... "

des " u dont look like one..."

ryche " chey..."

i simply do not understand my purpose in this world . a tree exist to provide shade , timber and housing . a snake keeps the mice away from the fields . the sun exist to provide warmth , sunlight for the earth and whole of the universe . wads my purpose?

neither do i benefit ppl around me . nor do i supply anyone or anything with something. basically i exist with no purpose . like an antimatter. neither nor position. a boat with a broken sail travels with the current , sails in the storm , alone.

camp was terrible . thats all i shall say. well at least its terrible for me . sleep deprived and mentally stressful . physically taxing . well. at least the games were fun! FOC did a great job in setting all these up!

amanda " .. she told me last night ... "
i have actually prepared for the worse . i felt like an idiot . like shrek . who loves the big green ugly monster? love me if u dare! right?

perhaps it all shouldnt have happen at all . well if i have known everything i will well me a millionaire by now . -_- shucks i am simply not in the mood today!

sam

chilling winds