Thursday, August 25, 2005

** 1121hrs **
** desolate **
** i am in the wrong **

Thursday , 25th august 2005 . Me , Sam is officially isolating myself from the outside world.

i don feel right these few days. i am a terrible person. horrible too.

i smoke, i drink , i am lazy , i am a pure slacker , i skip classes , i dont do my work , i leave everything to the last minute. i am ugly , i am fat , i am annoying , i am disgusting , i am a hypocrite. i am critical . ok enuff . i am digusted bymyself already.

please stay away from me ok?

i am going to be an anti social.

I AM FEELING TERRIBLE NOW!

the only one that i can talk to now is my smoke. tho it kills me, at least it listens . well not that no body listens . but i just don feel like talking to anyone. and no one wants to listen to my bitching.

as much as feeling terrible , i too feel very pissed off with all the ppl who still owes me my ticket stuffs . cant u just give it to me? be it bud or money. i am sick of chasing u every single practise and every single time. i am not obliged to serve u guys ok? neither did i opt for this. like how i told gene . i come to np for that diploma not to serve band and do shit jobs. -_- i come band for music playing. i enjoy making music together . i dont enjoy doing shit jobs . __

seriously i feel bad .

i know u do not wish to talk to me or maybe even at the sight of me u feel disgusted. and i am sorry that i blocked u that day and talked to u in such a tone. i am sincerely sorry. perhaps i have been thinking too much . i am the one at fault . i am being a MCP . argh.

no body ever finds out wads behind . no body ever cares wads teh cause.

me lives on the island. alone from now on.

sam

thanks xiuting and mill for the shrek and wonderful necklace? it looked more like a choker on my thick neck ! thanks!

- shrek. ogre
Scribbled by cow.drinks.milk @ 11:21 PM