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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
** 1335hrs **
** attachment kills **
** nothing heals **
attachment kills. crap! i am slogging my life away in this darn company now. Using the computer given to me to type this blog. -_- i am super fustrated with what is happening in my life now.
yeah i know attachment is a good way to learn new things and do all the practical shit. and i understand that in order for me to get my diploma , i have to finish my attachment ! isnt that great. cornered! it wastes so much of my time. well .. a lot of the reason why things turn out this way is becos of attachment. i cant go anywhere and all. when i am free , no one is free. when i am not , everyone else is having a great time.
alright . i shall not push all the blame to attachment. i know i had my fair share of skipping work. i know wad i am doing and i know it isnt right. like wad the guy from SWS said. the notes and dynamics are there, why do u still play wrong? u take no effort in making sure u play correctly. if its there and you should make sure u play it correctly. yeah .
now everything is there and i know it . but i just cant do anything abt it. alright , i admit its all about that matter. well.. to think of it , the problem may not even lie in not having enuff time to go out. it may well lie in the fact that i am just not good enuff for u. i seriously do not know wad it going on. i hav no idea of wad went wrong and wad went right. zz
so great. now it seems like i am blaming the whole world except me. who doesnt . like wads new here right? *sigh* terrible depression i should say. -_-
then theres the looming worries abt NS . yeah i call it national slimming. great. i look forward to going in and fight it out with my body. push it to the limit. over if requires. its the things that i am going to loss that i aint feeling good about.
now look. i have to postpone my further studies plan to go into ns. great eh! i know my results will get me no where. but i know if u put me into some university and do my shit i will do my best. i aint doing any better now! then to think of it , NS gives u the mind training to remain discipline. well i lack that. i admit. see the contradict here? i dread ns for dragging my time yet i know i will not do as well in U without the mind conditioning of NS . =\ the turmoil is intolerable. haiz.
its all about doing it at the right time in the right condition eh.
i know i am fat. i know i cant do sports for nuts. i know i know i know. yet i am not doing anything to fix the problem. helpless. i know fat makes me look ugly , i do not like it as much as u do. appearence is important. first impression is paramount. i lack discipline.
great.
superb.
i hate to wait for things to happen. like waiting for ur answer . like waiting for attachment to end. like waiting for everyone to get back to me. i hate waiting. and i have a great waiting plan of 2 years ahead of me.
sometimes i realli admire how gary can take it so well. at least he is doing fine with what he is doing now. i suppose? =
great. enough of whinning. i still have tons of work to do now. like doing my final report. and many other things .
I DISLIKE MY LIFE NOW! I HATE THE SITUATION I AM IN! KILL ME
samu
wait.
me : u is the only reason why i am still holding on and never give up.
u stands for university
u stands for the unconditional care
u stands for everything abt u
u is u .
** attachment kills **
** nothing heals **
attachment kills. crap! i am slogging my life away in this darn company now. Using the computer given to me to type this blog. -_- i am super fustrated with what is happening in my life now.
yeah i know attachment is a good way to learn new things and do all the practical shit. and i understand that in order for me to get my diploma , i have to finish my attachment ! isnt that great. cornered! it wastes so much of my time. well .. a lot of the reason why things turn out this way is becos of attachment. i cant go anywhere and all. when i am free , no one is free. when i am not , everyone else is having a great time.
alright . i shall not push all the blame to attachment. i know i had my fair share of skipping work. i know wad i am doing and i know it isnt right. like wad the guy from SWS said. the notes and dynamics are there, why do u still play wrong? u take no effort in making sure u play correctly. if its there and you should make sure u play it correctly. yeah .
now everything is there and i know it . but i just cant do anything abt it. alright , i admit its all about that matter. well.. to think of it , the problem may not even lie in not having enuff time to go out. it may well lie in the fact that i am just not good enuff for u. i seriously do not know wad it going on. i hav no idea of wad went wrong and wad went right. zz
so great. now it seems like i am blaming the whole world except me. who doesnt . like wads new here right? *sigh* terrible depression i should say. -_-
then theres the looming worries abt NS . yeah i call it national slimming. great. i look forward to going in and fight it out with my body. push it to the limit. over if requires. its the things that i am going to loss that i aint feeling good about.
now look. i have to postpone my further studies plan to go into ns. great eh! i know my results will get me no where. but i know if u put me into some university and do my shit i will do my best. i aint doing any better now! then to think of it , NS gives u the mind training to remain discipline. well i lack that. i admit. see the contradict here? i dread ns for dragging my time yet i know i will not do as well in U without the mind conditioning of NS . =\ the turmoil is intolerable. haiz.
its all about doing it at the right time in the right condition eh.
i know i am fat. i know i cant do sports for nuts. i know i know i know. yet i am not doing anything to fix the problem. helpless. i know fat makes me look ugly , i do not like it as much as u do. appearence is important. first impression is paramount. i lack discipline.
great.
superb.
i hate to wait for things to happen. like waiting for ur answer . like waiting for attachment to end. like waiting for everyone to get back to me. i hate waiting. and i have a great waiting plan of 2 years ahead of me.
sometimes i realli admire how gary can take it so well. at least he is doing fine with what he is doing now. i suppose? =
great. enough of whinning. i still have tons of work to do now. like doing my final report. and many other things .
I DISLIKE MY LIFE NOW! I HATE THE SITUATION I AM IN! KILL ME
samu
wait.
me : u is the only reason why i am still holding on and never give up.
u stands for university
u stands for the unconditional care
u stands for everything abt u
u is u .
- turmoil
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