**0100hrs**
**huh**
**extreme sadness**

today i went to the medical officer for a check up . for the cough the have been bothering me for the past week. so there i went and waited for 2 hrs. they said the doctor rushed a guy to hospital.

when i got home , i saw the news . the guy whom was sent to the hospital passed away . cos of chest pain.

life is fragile. just a week ago , a guy had jump off from the 14th of my block and died. i saw the corpse. aint comfortable tho.

life is fragile that it can be taken away anytime. lives have been taken away all around me. thats sad. ever since the start of man kind , humans have been trying to protect themselves. devising tools and weapons to fend off beast and to the vaccine created in labs to fight germs. tho the effort , lives can be taken away easily. by the forces of nature and by their own kind.

man killing man . for idealogy for fame for wealth . 1001 things . irony. o.o

extreme sadness.

things aint going that well tho. things have been kinda stagnent at work. studying and studying and doing nothing. bored. the brain is hungry for new things to do and the body is deprived of activity. i cant take it any much more longer. tsk . i dont mean i am going to commit suicide tho.

extreme sadness.

A B A B problem have yet to be solved . well... not that i am stil holding on. i just cant take the aftermath. yeah. call me useless call me coward. i just don wish to attend the event on sat. not that i dont consider her as my friend. but i just cant bring myself to the event when i know i wont enjoy a single bit. the usual long faced quiet me.

extreme sadness...

do looks realli matter that much?

why do people look at the appearence and judge it before even knowing u . or rather why even knowing u , looks still play an important part? hur hur . not that i am whining but it aint fair . i give u a good looking guy with a bad character . u would take it anytime with saliva still drooling out of the corner of ur mouth. thats the impression i have . thats the way things are .

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ok . 25th of nov. i have decided not to attend any thing. jo bbq , shuang bday , fatt concert and yan's performance. its just tat i cant decide which one to go . first time in my life i encounter these things. shows i am not that popular after all. well .. thats not the point . i dont realli care abt popularity.

sorry guys . its not that i dont wanna go. i have my reasons. reasons that are strong enuff for me not to attend either . so in the end i have chosen to go out with tang. and thats if she agrees . yeah. and dumb me for saying i wanna see much more of her thats why i dated her. great! i have just made the whole world turn against me. cheers

i know i have neither the looks nor the money to make u like me. i know it darn clear the rules of the game. and it sure looks like i aint playing with the rules.

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ok . enuff . even i think i am too negative today . hur hur .. negative energy is no good .. no good at all ...

extreme sadness...

samu