** 0307 hrs **
** yet another forcefully awake day **
** POP LO! **
** A B A B A B **

yup.... PoP loH! lolz . i have been thru BMT . now its FLC . and its ending soon . tml infact.

in many a times i kept reminding myself the duty i am supposed to serve. the role i am supposed to fit in. defending the nation that is . the very first day of BMT i step into tekong , say my oath , i am official a member of the SAF . to serve and fight. to protect and uphold the flag. tho saying so , sometimes it kept slipping my mind that i do not carry myself as a soldier . as someone whom will protect the country. i look back and i realise the importance of all these . the importance of protecting ur loved ones , the significance behind it . this country is all i have , the only one that i have. today , tml , infinite days ahead. POP LOH!

someday i will venture out of the nest . to look for greener pasture. to explore new territories and uncover new things. someday i will make it big . someday .....

ns experience is once in a life time. u get to know many many people , just when u think u knew them all , u turn a corner , u find another interesting fellow leading an extraordinary life. they are your buddies . buddies that u will sacrifice ur life protecting and in return sacrifice his to cover ur back.

in tekong i knew my buddy . tho not in contact so often , i still miss him . every now and then , i think of memories of bmt , i remember him. someone whom is tough on the outside and soft on the inside lolz. he has the strength of steel and the heart of gold. someone whom places friendship infront of many other things . we shared cigarettes , maggi mee , ration and wonderful memories. we came out with many fantastic ideas , to keng , to slack , to run away from lessons and to steal a puff .

there was once when we were deperately out of cigarettes , he will try way and means to find one . while i will beg and steal . in the end we would quietly sneak into the smoking point , fearful of leeches and share that precious stick we had.

i remember the time when i had high fever . 39.5 . he was the one whom gave me the fever patch , fill my water bottle and scold me out of bed to bathe. he was the one whom took care of me when i was sick .

he is my friend , my bunk mate , my buddy

thats BMT life . then came FLC , flight line crew . airforce sch . here i learnt many valuable technical lessons. technical know-how to the aircraft . here i made friends . friends whom will crack stupid jokes and friends whom are all out to go after a girl. there are the smart ones and the not so smart ones. the ultimate introvert and the outspoken extrovert. there are also understanding mentor and quality demanding officers.

in AFS i opted to stay in . never looked back ever since. in staying in , i learn independent. i learn how to conquer fear , my own fear. i experience ultimate loneliness and joyful gatherings. i learnt time management , which didnt turn out that well .. and ultimately i learnt kinship. i began to love my mum's cooking and i miss lan gaming with my brother.

every day is a learning day . everyone u meet is here to teach you something ......
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heh! thats abt all abt ns . =) yet again its POP LOH! tml will be my last day at AFS . wad lies ahead is still unknown . =) more things to learn and more people to meet i guess...

A B A B A B .... choices u make in life. i set out with a neutral heart. hoping to make more friends , to broaden my circle of friends. i fear one day the circle will start strinking . becoming smaller and smaller till i end up with no friends. i tried keeping up with other ppl's life . in the end i realise . it aint that simple . aint that simple at all . i ended up being A .

A is the one whom thinks if he is determined to make friends , nothing will happen . neither do he want to fall in love . cos he realise love aint mean anything after all.

wad does one get out of love ? hatred , betrayal , penniless , emotion stress , basically nothing. or perhaps if u ask , wad does one hope/want to get out of a relationship . then comes in a different equation with love , ego , sex , money ..... many many other things.

A aint the one going after anything. he needed no love nor did he need to fill some ego . sex and money are ridiculous to him. then he came into a conclusion. why bother getting into love now where neither can u afford the money nor the time. so he decided . make more friends.

and he went about knowing more people and keeping more often in contact. not knowing one day he would fall for someone whom he tot impossible all along. ridiculous right? now he is back to the problem he started off avoiding.

it aint doing anyone good . so he suffered in silence plus emotion crisis .

lolz . thats the story of A . A for stupid , childish thinking . A for thinking in such a simple way ending up making a fool of himself .

he could just look in the reflection and laugh at himself . booo.

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lolz . thats more or less abt it . lolz .. funny funny .

samu

dragon pl 2 : we had wonderful memories . now we are seperated . someday we shall meet up right?

rondeau 21 : its wonderful! superb performance . but just under-performed ticket sales.

tang! : be safe and return to spore kz! MMM and CC !! remember!

samu : HAHAHAHAHA